I don’t know if it is because it is the first time I ever walk into a Sephora during the Christmas season, or because I actually know the difference between a foundation and a concealer now, or maybe because I was just hungry… but the layout of the whole store is intoxicating! In my drunken state, I actually saw the hypnotic shimmer that the ad below is advertising encircling the make-up that tempted me.
Dear make-up lovers, beware! Lorac came out with a holiday set that looks like chocolate bars. How is a woman that loves chocolate and make-up have the hopes of standing up to this thing!? This is like kryptonite, and I felt myself wobbly with lack of self control over eyeshadow colors that I already have at home, simply because of the cute chocolate bar packaging. I saw a girl holding all the different chocolate bars looking very troubled, probably thinking, “But this is too cute to give to someone else! But I already don’t need any more eyeshadows!”
The sales people are also wearing red lines on their sleeves… making you think of holidays, more specifically Christmas, thus leading you to worry of what you are going to get as gifts for other people, but more, what are you going to gift yourself. It gives you this false sense of generosity that comes off after you wind down at home and wonder why you got make-up for everyone in your house…
There was an abundance of colored sets, flashy packaging, mirrors and lighting that made any color look good on you. And finally, what Sephora is known for during the holidays: bargain packages… where you only really like one thing of the whole set, but why not get the whole set anyways? So you buy a kit of things you only somewhat like, and then spend more money buying what you actually really wanted in the first place! I was so overwhelmed with decisions that I could not make one, and I even felt shaky buying the foundation that I actually needed as mine was running out.
Even right now I am thinking of the chocolate bar Lorac eyeshadows. *Drool….
I've been in a panic these last few months. Making minimum payments on my student loans serviced by Sallie Mae Inc. was no longer merely a challenge - it was getting impossible. After making some awful sacrifices to refrain from defaulting (see more on that below), I'm in a corner.
I am aware of the total lack of consumer protection associated with student debt.
Going to a regular minimum wage job after gloriously graduating from college has been teaching me numerous things about my situation as an indebted student. The most notable in my opinion, is that I am not alone. While just working there for a month, I noticed a new face who was nervously restocking more cupcakes in the front. Not really knowing anything about her, but remembering how hard it was to ask for guidance from moody co-workers, I decided to be kind and open whenever she asked questions. While we were folding boxes, she asked me if I had gone to college… I just responded broadly with, “Some college.” She then told me that she had gotten an engineering degree and that she was 27! I then decided to confide that I also graduated and high-fived her as I did not feel so alone anymore. She looked at me perplexed and just thought I was being funny.
Us new graduates do not look old or have that ‘scholarly face,’ we look like teenagers under our minimum wage uniforms. Next time you order coffee and a donut, do not assume anymore that the person handing you your receipt is still in high school or lacked motivation to do greater things in his or her life… it is not about us being the problem anymore, but the lack of opportunity.
I just graduated from college last June, and it has hit me like stones falling down the fact that I now have to repay my student loans, and currently have a job that pays me minimum wage. I feel really sad because I have to put my life and plans on hold for 5+ years until I can pay my loans back. It also makes me sad to think back on all the papers I felt so proud about that I received A+ and was asked by professors to give presentations about them, to now be starting from scratch, with a degree that keeps losing its value and a job I could have gotten in high school. It also makes me question where I get my sense of worth…
This government corruption and profit driven society is destroying every part of our lives. This recession, the oil spill that is still going on in the gulf of Mexico, homelessness and student debt… and it keeps going on. I feel as if I am getting punished for having gotten higher education. You learn how to make the world a better place in college, but cannot do anything about it because you need to pay your debt. You do not have time to volunteer, or spend your energy in other constructive things to improve your community, simply because you need to pay back your debt. *Sigh… I hope I can get a nice second job in this difficult job market and never be late on a payment. You know what though? There is only so much people can take before they get out of their sleepy state and want to do something about this corruption. I feel like an indentured servant who needs to slave away for 7 years before I am considered a free full citizen.